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2019-09-13
Friday, the 13th. Feeling really down today. Off. Is it the date? Is it the weather? Is it the fact that I've quit smoking? It's been 2 full days. I quit on 9.12.19. I leave here in 5 more nights. Getting through the weekend which is all about some down time. This will be good for me. I will read. Do work, write letters, + really try to focus. This is my cross to bear. Giving it all over + up to God. I can't know where Howard's head is @ + although I know he ♥'s me... I just don't know if we can make it work. It sucks but there is not much I can do right @/in this moment but pray for guidance from the universe/ higher power. Feeling homesick + I think it's b/c I'm not going home.
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| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | 0.044155285204762 |
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| Joy | 0.10877100583353 |
| Sadness | 0 |
| Fear | 0.1915469134238 |
| Anger | 0.023979866811639 |
| Surprise | 0.58168153978209 |
| Disgust | 0 |
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| know feeling god homesick power guidance moment work just head | |
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