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2019-09-08
In bed with my coffee. Had nightmares all night. Dreamt I got with Brendan who was with Liz @ the time. Dreamed that people from my past were trying to kill me – the speaker from last night + some New Orleans peeps. Kept getting phone calls from people who said that they wanted to kill me + was hiding all dream. Think it was drugs that are trying to kill me today is 6 days clean + sober. Howard came to visit – it was lovely. First time in over a year. Sad that I've been in 3 places since then. Where do we go from here? I'm not entirely sure. Talked to Eric today and he seems lost in his future plans... afraid he will relapse... when I leave. I can't control his behaviors – I can't control anyone but myself. Today is Day # 5 + I can tell my cravings + irritability kicking in. Just gotta get through the next 9 days.
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| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | 0.078597136213333 |
| Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
| Joy | 0.31592161253551 |
| Sadness | 0.59258278096055 |
| Fear | 0.66465085230146 |
| Anger | 0.50756436057862 |
| Surprise | 0 |
| Disgust | 0 |
| Key Words | |
| day kill control night dream time people talk today future | |
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