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2019-09-07
Today was a good day + I am grateful for so much. I am finally at peace with being here knowing it's the absolute best thing for me. I spoke to E today. He looks great + sounded great – saying how much he misses me. I miss him too. The dilemma of it all – but I do know that it will work out the way it should/ will. Think he is regretful of NOT staying sober + fucking our time together up. But it would have been him or me. I'm actually excited for him to go to a meeting with me. And then I have Howard coming to see me tomorrow. I am nervous + feel happy that he is coming @ the same time. I know this is my time + will not pick up under any + all circumstances for a period of one year. Asking my higher power for signs to help + support me in this extremely difficult ♥ ∆. Excited to wake up for coffee tomorrow.
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| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | 0.058329847138889 |
| Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
| Joy | 1 |
| Sadness | 0 |
| Fear | 0 |
| Anger | 0 |
| Surprise | 0.26590715317999 |
| Disgust | 0 |
| Key Words | |
| know miss great coming good time pick circumstances year power | |
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