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2019-09-06
Feeling less anxious today. Just a little pissed at self. Feel slightly embarrassed + silly that I'm back in this spot but ultimately it was the courageous thing to do. My goal for today is to continue working out + going to the gym. To hone into the “critical moments” + truly get clear on what I must do to ensure I'm not here again. That involves saying “goodbye” to some really close friends Peter, Angela, Kiadii, Sheridan, Nick, Those are the repeat offenders. I think for a period of about 6 months I will have to stay clear of anyone who uses. I can contact via phone but not see in person. What are my “critical moments”? – Angry at press – Sense of accomplishment – reward – Feeling like I'm not being heard “powerlessness” – Being around others who are high – Boredom; lack of structure, free – “Opportunity to get 72 hr time period.
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| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | -0.048663185944444 |
| Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
| Joy | 0 |
| Sadness | 0 |
| Fear | 0.29875740083008 |
| Anger | 1 |
| Surprise | 0.064398369185444 |
| Disgust | 0 |
| Key Words | |
| anxious close like feeling accomplishment sense angry person phone contact | |
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