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2019-09-01
First day of September – usually my favorite month – the beginning of fall. The end to a long, hot, summer. I'm still trying to put the pieces back together. Figuring out my long-term plans while also trying to stay present + remind self that I'm exactly where I need to be. There are loose ends and sad conversations ahead of me. Getting on the same page as Howard, saying goodbye to Delray, figuring out financial arrangments[sic] and living set-up. It's gotten better – don't feel so alone however it's still not where it should be. Been 3 weeks + still haven't slept with him. Entire month @ home. It's been partly circumstance + partly choice. But something has to give + sooner the better. The one thing I do know is that I spend entirely too much time on my phone – insta, FB, etc... so today I am going to take a break + not pick phone up until much later in day. Everything is as it should be. I expect + accept great abundance to come into my life.
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| Score | 0.14955149480972 |
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| Joy | 0.072673480077957 |
| Sadness | 0.72093751131036 |
| Fear | 0.11107202279079 |
| Anger | 0 |
| Surprise | 0.082325268515611 |
| Disgust | 0 |
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| day month better end trying phone entirely choice soon thing | |
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