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2019-08-14
It's when I get overwhelmed – I tend to want to “escape” +/or shut down. The feeling just crept up and made me want to “run” + smoke – but I know that's not a great idea/option. So instead, I am writing about it. I am getting anxious about seeing Howard! It feels a little crazy. I've been so used to being on my own + doing “me” + now have to think about others. There is anxiety + not sure where it comes from... maybe it's “lack” of having substances – it's been 5 full days. It's been the longest I've gone in awhile. I think it might be good for me to run on the treadmill.
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| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | -0.101883222875 |
| Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
| Joy | 1 |
| Sadness | 0 |
| Fear | 0 |
| Anger | 0.17227866388543 |
| Surprise | 0 |
| Disgust | 0 |
| Key Words | |
| overwhelm sure good think gone day substance maybe crazy tend | |
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