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2019-07-28
OK baby – time to buck up. I am calling in all the troops and hunker down for 3 days. Today is Friday – the start of a new weekend and I am fully ready, geared up, and in shape to take this battle on full throttle. Today I am most likely not going anywhere but I will say that tomorrow you have no choice. You are going to start working the program – following all recommendations to a T and really – I'm ready for it. No more talk – only action. No weed – possibly to get me through today but that's medication management. It's going to be a great real new start – refresh. Hold up – let's do the damn thing. There is a feeling – of the family I knew – certain smells – sounds – an overall being wrapped up in the coziest blanket. Memories of past times – when I felt safe + perfectly content. And that was ripped out from me. Processing 35 years of one way and it's only be 4 years of another – completely new, discombobulated, piece-meal, and shattered. But it's about facing these new emotions with grace + dignity. That's all I can do @ this point. Website Relaunched → Photos Re-touched Press Release – Press Launch – Tuesday, June 4th *Invite people. Fashion installation – hire models. “Rosana” – Connect to John *Built out on Hamilton website.
LinguisticAnalysis
Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
Score | 0.091746755495833 |
Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
Joy | 0.032378766371091 |
Sadness | 0.24796553114691 |
Fear | 0 |
Anger | 0.0056289708718416 |
Surprise | 0.51551750901763 |
Disgust | 0 |
Key Words | |
start going today baby certain smell overall memory past times |