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2019-07-17
This date deserve it's own page + special attention! Because it has been my most productive and happiest one for a few months. Why might you ask? Sober, Day # 4, productive + non-stop since 9am. It is now 4pm. The full moon has passed + I am really trying to remain free today. Why do you want to do anything that lowers your vibe + makes you feel like shit! You get 0 done + pick your face in the mirror the entire time. Straight out of boredom. Maybe this time is telling me to slow down? I have jumped leaps + bounds to get here + why now making life complicated + stressful? Why sabotage a good thing. And it's such a waste of money, time, + energy. I'm making serious progress + don't need it all to be spoiled away by one quick, rash, + brutal decision. How do I find peace around it all? Is there peace to be found? I am going to be tested tomorrow, Fri, or Sat and what lie am I going to have to tell? What do I do? It will pass. You want it to pass... keep holding tight + don't make arrangements for it again – no poking + prodding. Today is day #4 after the hardest day to overcome. Well, the next few days but do you want to keep having to go through the “come through” phase – this is torture – over + over again. Stop the insanity. Put it all to rest. New moon, new attitude, new, new.
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| Score | 0.097727803747619 |
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| Joy | 0 |
| Sadness | 0.0096229362479698 |
| Fear | 0.090763443840869 |
| Anger | 0 |
| Surprise | 0.15605965121897 |
| Disgust | 0 |
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| day new peace making pass torture going sabotage thing spoil | |
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