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2019-02-20
Feeling needy – ping ponging between men at this point – even though I am liking/interested at different times + for different reasons. But feeling out of sorts. Confused. Not knowing how to navigate this situation. I adore Eric but he is young, immature, and not entirely motivated. He is my surfer dude – reminds me of Jamie Alano. The good news is that I don't have to make any desicions[sic] now. Although it feels as though I do. I put a lot of pressure on myself to figure everything out. If dad runs it truly messes up everything with homeboy. It all makes me nervous. But that's not happening today – I have to stay in the moment – It all feels heavy but need to keep it easy. 2,529.45 $
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| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | -0.075418366753333 |
| Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
| Joy | 0 |
| Sadness | 0.014113756059219 |
| Fear | 0.18085748965116 |
| Anger | 0.34463305538432 |
| Surprise | 0 |
| Disgust | 0 |
| Key Words | |
| feel needy heavy moment stay today happening nervous mess truly | |
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