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2019-02-07
Owning my power + realizing that unlimited happiness resides within. He didn't call last night + it worried me – became a little pre-occupied[sic] and I didn't like it. So today I focus on continuing to own my power and not attach to him to make me feel better. He said he left phone in car but who knows – I have faith that I will be led to the person + down the path that is right for me. I am working on letting/not letting others control me or my emotions – it's not a healthy space to be. The truth is – everything I thought I knew – ended up not being entirely accurate. Kevin was soulmate + we were going to end up together etc... what I know now is that feelings change, situations change, + I am looking for stability in myself. I don't know much but do know that I am on my way to finding it.
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| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | 0.16921229109735 |
| Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
| Joy | 0.11384376254283 |
| Sadness | 0.2523590309477 |
| Fear | 0.51825836102506 |
| Anger | 0 |
| Surprise | 0.023902430727152 |
| Disgust | 0 |
| Key Words | |
| know power end way look situation accurate entirely truth control | |
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DiaryEntry
2019-02-07
First full 24 hours and feeling good – settled. Went to a morning meeting with Hallie. She has been great since I got home + I am super grateful. Let go, let God. One day @ a time. It will all work out if I let it. Eric is still in detox and gets released this time tomorrow. I am feeling neutral with the entire situation. I'm not obsessing or concerned – I know life will bring me what I need in time. It's trusting the process + letting go – I have a call with mom + dad this evening @ 8pm. I have to practice patience + tolerance for their feelings + all that is said.
LinguisticAnalysis
| Sentiment (-1=negative, 1=positive) | |
| Score | 0.12428140976299 |
| Emotion Scores (0-1) | |
| Joy | 0.019500383299617 |
| Sadness | 0 |
| Fear | 0.09438492699696 |
| Anger | 0.078411301934785 |
| Surprise | 0.069255513634305 |
| Disgust | 0 |
| Key Words | |
| time feeling hour practice evening mom letting process bring life | |
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