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2019-01-25
January - The end of a New York month. I am sitting in a bed @ the I-building – actually loving the freedom yet support I feel outside my doors. Florida seems safe + comforting to me. I am supposed to map out the rest of my years - 5 years, 3 years, 1 year. I am also trying to sort out my life - what is it that I want + need? Focused on myself this time around but like a kid with Aspergers unsettled in the change. I obviously don't know what the future holds but also don't know where I'll be – but I would like to remain sober – although getting high – like an Aspergers kid. What we pay attention to grows + so what if I tried another strategy – to acknowledge when really hurting or just pretend + put out my conciousness[sic].
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| Joy | 0.36451303171265 |
| Sadness | 0.20310477290945 |
| Fear | 0.15020301593236 |
| Anger | 0 |
| Surprise | 0.23561271437376 |
| Disgust | 0 |
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| year like end sober change obviously know hold remain high | |
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